Friendship becomes disaster when:
Tuesday, Aug. 16, 2005 @ 20:28
-You begin to expect something of them. This could be anything like money, sex, calling you at a certain time and if they don�t, then the only emotion you feel is betrayal.
-You become suspicious of anything they do because they�ve done or said something behind your back, even if it�s not relevant to you.
-When they start blaming you for little things such as lack of sleep.
-When you think you don�t like them any longer but realize if you let them go then it�s like your heart is ripped out and you feel the need to watch them closely.
-Draining the other emotionally when it�s not even intentional
-Hating yourself for opening up to that person when all you will get in return is a reminder later on about how stupid it was.
-Regret that you haven�t really seen that person for who they really are.
-When they act like they hate you to be cool, and later when everything is all good, they say how much they really cared. Obviously they didn�t to be stupid like that. Okay, I am guilty of that one, excuse me while I slice up myself for this one.
-When you do something for them and it means nothing to them.
-Needing to move on from the past
[When they constantly remind you about stupid mistakes, so the best thing you can do is defend yourself by throwing their own mistakes in their face. Then all they do is put on a pathetic show.
-When you don�t feel sorry for them because they got themselves in their own situation.
-Feel revenge is justified.
-All you think about is their failures and what you could have done to prevent them.
-When you don�t even want to hear their voice.
-When you want to believe them, but something tells you that you shouldn�t because you can�t trust them.
-When you�ve lost respect because where did they get that idea? Obviously they got if from somewhere else.
-When you can�t get over what they said and done.
-How they�ve insulted you, yet you take it seriously, but oh no, of course, they didn�t mean it. So should anything this person say be taken seriously?
-Best of all, when you wonder why you are still with that person.
People... This is not cool to live with. What�s the best thing to do? Hope things will get better, or move on hoping the next person isn�t a back stabber. I have no choice but to get over this person. They�ve done nothing to help me, even if I wanted to believe they did. Otherwise, things would be betterh.
It�s become to hard to have a relationship along with swimming. At least I know that swimming could never betray me. It would be my fault if I had a bad race, no one elses, and it would be up to me to have a good one. I never knew someone could be so driven by past influences so much, and I am talking about me. Well...
Jenna
*Song: Seether � Truth.
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